So this is literally the only place I can talk about this because I can't post in my social media…

So this is literally the only place I can talk about this because I can't post in my social media and I literally feel like I have no one...this past weekend on Saturday morning my fiancé attempted to commit suicide...all because he was so drunk the next day and ptsd kicked in...I am beyond hurt by this! Not mad at him in any means if anything I am mad he decided not to talk to me about what was going on! He has been on the hospital...and I have been home alone and I honestly don't know how strong I am...because his best friend found out what happened got in my face and pushed me down blaming me saying it was really my fault that he even tried!! I've been in tears since no idea what in the world to do! I'm literally all alone besides my son who I am extremely glad has no idea what is going on besides the fact his daddy hasn't been home! Been locked up in the house and I'm at the point I can't get out of bed only for my son I can and the moment he is down I am too..I just needed to vent that is all and the fact I can't talk to anyone who is close to me about this is the worst part about it and the stress and tention is just getting worse! 😩