I said it, and I meant it whn I said it. I dont plan on having another baby. I am too old lol and I…

I said it, and I meant it whn I said it. I dont plan on having another baby. I am too old lol and I don't kno if I can mentally handle it again. But a coupla days last week and yesterday....there were a few moments whn the thought of me having another baby was a good idea. I agreed with the thought of it. Is that how it begins lol? I feel like I cant trust myself lol. One day um gonna wake up wit 4 kids n not know how it happened lol.