Well, I think we are canceling our trip back home... my first pregnancy I ended up with severe…

Well, I think we are canceling our trip back home... my first pregnancy I ended up with severe preeclampsia, delivered at 33w2d... and just the thought of making the 10+hour trip back home, and all the people who are pulling for our time and attention I started feeling super sick and just 'not right'... checked my BP it was 134/84 (yesterday it was 106/67)... if it hits 140/90, my midwife will make me start coming in for weekly checks! 😓 after I called my mom and told her I am scared that the trip is too much, and I'm not sure it is what I should be doing right now... I actually feel better, and think we should cancel it... and do something more relaxing with the time instead! After that I took my BP again and it was 110/73... which is SO much better! Just feel like I'm going to disappoint my older daughter who is graduating from College... which is the reason we are making the trip in the first place! 😓 I want to be there for her... but don't think I can take that risk with this pregnancy!