I'm super upset. Tomorrow's my birthday and my best friend and a friend of mine left on a cruise today and neither of…

I'm super upset. Tomorrow's my birthday and my best friend and a friend of mine left on a cruise today and neither of them said anything to me clearly knowing they won't be speaking to me for a week. I cried twice today. I feel like I have no friends and that makes me feel that people think I'm a shitty friend and no one wants to be my friend. Literally no one cares about me in that department. Awesome SO and awesome child but in the friend category I suck! My SO's friends are coming out with us tonight but they've made it clear I can't consider them "my" friend too. Ive learned that saying anything to them is like a quit way for them to my SO and tell him everything Ive said...the struggle is real😪