So this is personal but I would like to hear some positive stories. As most of you know my daughter…

So this is personal but I would like to hear some positive stories. As most of you know my daughter passed away almost 2 years ago at the age of 5 due to heart problems. So we have been dealing with high levels of stress for quite a few years now. Me and my husband (my daughters step father) have been ttc for 4 years now. We experienced 2 missed miscarriages within this time. After my daughter passed, our 2 missed miscarriages, and unexplained infertility, My husband broke and developed a bit of a drinking habit. (Going on about 6 months now) It really depresses me knowing that we already have trouble and alcohol makes it worse. I have talked to him about this and he is not willing to make any changes. I know he is stressing over our fertility. He talks about it all the time but I feel like he has just given up. Every time we argue he throws up "just go find someone who can have kids!" So it really bothers him. I tell him all the time I love him and I will be happy to just have me an him for our whole life. My only thing is, I would like for him to at least make some sacrifices for me and try! I don't want this to rob me of ever being a parent again. All I wanted in life was to be a mom. And lately we both just let go completely. 😢