Hubby and I fell asleep a bit early tonight (not sure why). I slept for a couple hours and he's…

Hubby and I fell asleep a bit early tonight (not sure why). I slept for a couple hours and he's still out. Tomorrow is the baby shower and frankly I'm a nervous wreck. I know I shouldn't worry or care about what everyone will think. My mom invited the church (I stopped going because of being insulted) and family members who don't like me because I'm "too white". I already know what they think of me before I was pregnant and now it'll get worse. I've never been liked by family. And when it comes to "God's people" apparently being quiet and always wear sweaters instead of dresses for ladies is bad and "God" doesn't accept. I'll have to deal with it all as well as hubby but I don't need to have a panic attack and then explain why it happened because everyone will be all pissy about it. All I have to do is grin and bear it and hope for the best.