I feel like I need to go on medication for my depression after the babies are here... I was…

My fiancé is the same , if he doesn't smoke he gets depressed he's gotten like this after his dad passed away and honestly it's the only thing that keeps him sane

@pinkxoxo I know I won't be able to smoke like I used to once the babies are here.. I just don't know what to do to be honest. Do I deal with it and wait til night and just smoke in the master bathroom or do I go to the Dr and get medication? I've always tried to avoid having to be on medication for my anxiety and depression... but if I can't smoke then it's my only option I think...

@blaqkharma thank you and sorry for your loss as well. I'm having a really hard time and I'm trying not to show it.

I have anxiety really bad especially when I'm pregnant I don't smoke but I do find going out on walks makes me feel much better have you tried doing that? Or even taking long baths

@pinkxoxo my Dr told me not to walk for more than 10 minutes at a time unfortunately but as soon as I can I will try it. And I can't take baths our tub is fucked up so I take showers and I get dizzy 😢

It gets better I promise I had to watch my grandfather passed who is more my father than my own he didn't want to be brought back but we knew it was coming his cancer had spread and the chemo wasn't helping my cousin and I laid on his bed with our heads on his chest and while I can never forget him taking his last breath I try to remember the time we were sitting out the store waiting for my grandma and I had put barbies hair on his head and him saying I have hair it took a while they are still there but I try not to let them consume me I wore his jacket for 365 days to the point it made my teacher depressed but remember a piece of him is in those babies also visiting my grandfather grave helped and every year on his birthday I listen to his favorite song and just sit there and cry and you can talk to your ob mine told me she would write me something after I had my son because he was going through some health scares

I hope things get better for you 🙏🏻

@twinmomma2b, I will pray 🙏🏻🙏🏻 that those beautiful faces of 2 sweet babies will be joy and happiness to ur life and that's all u need. live day by day and don't overthink what u may or may not need later focus on now be healthy. What would ur dad want u to do? He would want u to b the best mom u can b. You are blessed u have the strength to have 2 beautiful babies growing inside of u u have the strength to be a mom. You are breathing u are healthy u and loved be thankful. Others would love to b n ur shoes. I'm so sorry for ur loss and can only imagine how hard it is. I have 2 seen someone die and I named my son after him and each day when my son smiles it gives me joy I feel as if the legend is living on through my son. God makes everything happen for a reason all the timing was in that order for a reason sometimes we don't know why or how but we just have to have faith.