This is anorexia. 9 pills a day is what I take to keep my body functioning properly. Iron, calcium, potassium, a…

This is anorexia. 9 pills a day is what I take to keep my body functioning properly. Iron, calcium, potassium, a laxative, a mood stabilizer, an anxiety medication, a sleeping pill, magnesium, and another calcium pill to help with osteoporosis. I'm deficient in almost everything. I have arthritis. I have osteoporosis. My liver and kidneys are permanently damaged. I can't go to the bathroom properly. I will struggle to ever have another viable pregnancy.

And this is AFTER treatment. I am 98lbs. Before treatment, I was 88lbs. I couldn't pick up my daughter. I couldn't go up and down stairs. I couldn't stand up for more than a few seconds. My liver and kidneys were on the verge of failing. I have bald spots. I have bad teeth. I am in constant pain.

Eating disorders are not beautiful, they're not funny, they're not some kind of phase or trend. They're deadly. They ruin lives, and they take lives. They eat away at you until you're nothing but a shell.

I'm not posting this for pity or for whatever. I just want to put it out there that if you are struggling with disordered thoughts, PLEASE get help. It's hard. It is so, so hard. But it is so much better than dying. If you know someone who you suspect may be struggling, please help them get help.