I'm 19 I have depression and anxiety my mom has my son he will be 2 on June 30th my mom what me to…

Because he has to get a full time job

No I have tryed consulting sence I was like 10 been on med but not anymore it never worked

Listen I have been where you are. I was 18 when I had my first son...it's tough and it's unimaginable thinking about doing it full time on your own. I battle anxiety, depression and I'm in recovery from a serious heroin addiction. Every day is a struggle but I found myself and my happiness thru my children. 2 is a tough age...I promise it's Guna get easier and you're going to WANT to be with your baby full time. Don't let the thought of the stress and hard stuff consume you. Find what you are grateful for. Be grateful to have a happy, healthy baby. Imagine the moms out there who lose their children and would KILL to have just one more day with them ...imagine moms in other countries who don't even have fresh water to give their babies. It could be so much worse. You have to be strong and always remember to put yourself first. I know that sounds selfish but it's not. You can only be a good mom if YOU are happy and healthy. I always relate it to this metaphor : if you are on a plane and the plane is crashing, what is the first thing they tell you to do? Secure your own oxygen mask right? THEN help others. Because what good will you be to anyone if you don't have oxygen yourself ? Find what makes YOU happy and be the best mom you can be. We all fail , we all make mistakes ...and it's NOT easy. Especially when you are 19 years old. But you CAN do it and you will be so happy you did.

Thank you so much I almost cried it just idk what or how to do it I mean my bf going to be gone all day everyday and I have to be all alone with my son and I have no friends and I can never get out have girl time and we don't have a car and my son isn't going to like going alll the way to a store and back pretty much everyday I already struggle to have clothes for myself cuz every money I get goes to my son....

I know how you feel ...trust me. I am a single mom of 4 kids !!! Their dad doesn't help with anything not even financially. I am lucky and so grateful to have an amazing family and friends that help me with my kids and love them as they were their own. But I still have days where I struggle too...it's hard being stuck in the house alone with a 2 year old and no adult to talk to. I went through it. Wen I was your age , that was my life. At that point my ex and I were still together and it was me and Peyton (my oldest) home alone all day. I was 19. All of my friends were out at the bar or at parties or even just shopping and hanging out and I felt so alone. None of my friends had kids at that point bc I got pregnant young and staying clean was a struggle enough in itself. I know how bad it feels right now but I'm here to tell u it's not forever. It will get easier and it'll all be worth it. I got pregnant with the twins when my son was 3. I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to handle it. And to be honest w you I think all moms go thru the "can I handle this?" Stage. You need to be able to have time for yourself so you don't slip into a depression. What about talking to your bf about having "you" time once a week where he stays w your son? Or how about getting a part time job for yourself and putting your son in daycare a few days a week?

He has to have a full time job court order and I can't work personal reason and my son can't go to daycare/preschool until like 3 and it takes a long time to get in I just feel like if I get my son full time I'm going to lose it always doing it all day everyday by myself never being able to do anything it bad enough that I don't even have friends to have girl time or do anything my depression is probably going to get worse