I miscarried 25 months ago... we had been Trying to get pregnant ever since. I was diagnosed with…

I miscarried 25 months ago... we had been Trying to get pregnant ever since. I was diagnosed with Unexplained infertility. They said I had a 1-2 % chance of conceiving in each month they said we could try iui which would increase my chances to 6-8 % in one month. We were set up to do iui my next cycle.... when I found out I got pregnant naturally, you can imagine how excited and happy I was. Excited and scared.

5 days after my positive pregnancy test I started having brown spotting, I had spotting for 5 days and on the 6th day I knew it was bad. I had red gushes of blood. They told me I needed to wait until Monday for blood test and ultrasound.

I went in today so scared. They did My blood test and it came back with high 4,000 hcg they said you're still pregnant, I tried not too get too excited because I still had the ultrasound.

The ultrasound shows nothing in my Uterus, it was an ectopic pregnancy it was still growing. I had to get 2 shots and terminate it immediately before my tubes end up bursting.

I wish I had brought My husband with me.

I am so lost alone and all I want to do is cry, crawl up and die.

I'm so empty.

God why me?

Why do horrible things happen to good people. It doesn't make any sense to me.

I have the worst luck and anything bad that can happen always happens to me and I dont understand why? why can't anything go right for me? Why can't I have a happy ending without suffering so much.

2 miscarriages and 1 ectopic pregnancy.

I'm so mad at myself for letting myself get so excited so early. I already had my babies whole life planned in the 10 days I got to be pregnant.

Nothing will make me feel better until I get pregnant and actually make it full term and have a baby in the end not another disappointment.