I know it's hard, love. But honestly I worked at a preschool and had a few siblings that were really close in age and they shared an amazing bond. Also, diapers, potty training, breastfeeding will all be done around the same time, so once your little ones finish you'll be all done and won't have to worry about it. I know it seems scary but I promise you that once you have that second baby and get into a groove/schedule everything will come together. I'm so proud of you already mama