My whole world came crashing down as I relived my worst nightmare. For the second time in my life I…

My whole world came crashing down as I relived my worst nightmare. For the second time in my life I had to hear the heart ripping words "There is no heart beat." Tomorrow would have been your due date, sometime around this time I would have been welcoming you into the world. That would have been so wonderful! I can just imagine all my children here with me Hannah would have been 6 now, Delaney would have been 1 1/2 and this one I named Stormie (as he/she is another part of my storm leading to my rainbow!) would just be arriving. I would have been introducing him/her to my girls any day now! God, that just sounds so beautiful to me! I wish so badly thats how it was! But instead I have 3 beautiful children in Heaven waiting for me! I know Hannah is sure enjoying that! All she ever wanted was to be a big sister! Now she has to little siblings to love and take care of in heaven with her! I could really use a little one here with me to love and to hold. Mommy loves you forever my sweet babies! Ask God to send mommy a rainbow baby soon! And send him/her with plenty of hugs and kisses from you to me please!