I need to just talk a little bit...get a few things off my chest to hopefully make me feel…

I need to just talk a little bit...get a few things off my chest to hopefully make me feel better...today has been horrible I went a whole 28 hours with our eating 2 hours of sleep...and I had to take care of my son...even though my fiancé is home....my fiancé took our son over to his friends house even though they have been drinking all day and I didn't know it until i learned it later on...wasn't happy about it!! Of course I am mad! So I have been grouchy all day and I wasn't invited to hang out with his friends because it was guys only like okay understandable...to find it other girlfriends were invited...he told me well it's because you can be bitchy and complain...uhhh yeah I get little sleep and I am a Mom...but usually I sit there quietly and asked him why he didn't defend me...he said because you make it hard for me to defend you...been crying ever since...I was hurt...talked to my mom about it and she said that's wrong of him! Like right! Conversation came up later and we were just having a discussion about it on how I will defend him to my friends where I should have never but I did because he is my SO...he said he won't...his friends hate me period...because of me his friends don't want to come around..because of me and his son..his friends said I ruined his life...but he never defended me...I officially told him if you want out of this relationship me and Grayson will leave I will just leave since I'm not even remotely close to being important to you..he said he doesn't want to be done...but emotionally I don't know how much I can handle...I got tired of being told how worthless I am so I went out and hit a great job...now I am a bad Mom because I work and take online classes...somehow I'm still worthless (all coming from his friends)...I don't know what I did to deserve this...I feel way too alone! My friends don't see me because I have a baby...my fiancé rather be with his friends...his friends hate me..my family loves a few hours away...I'm just hurt...