I have been doing soo good not even thinking about TTC, then the second I get on here I go baby crazy again. lol…

I have been doing soo good not even thinking about TTC, then the second I get on here I go baby crazy again. lol Starting to believe I have a serious addiction and mom life is a bad influence on me. lol I am just terrible, I even took a test and got a BFN of course. I AM ONLY 8 DPO! WHY AM I TESTING!? I have a cart on amazon with a balance of like $175 of nothing but baby making stuff! Fertilaid for me and hubby, preseed, even a freaking at home sperm check test! I HAVENT EVEN GOT MY PAY CHECK YET! Now thats is crazy! I know it's just that I want it really bad but I have to get a hold of myself! I can't keep doing myself like this! I just love it here though lol!!! 😂😙