I'm so proud of myself I been through some rough patches in my short 26 yrs of life . Having my son at 18 wasn't easy I…

I'm so proud of myself I been through some rough patches in my short 26 yrs of life . Having my son at 18 wasn't easy I had to grow up and miss out on a lot because I had to work work work and provide for me and my baby although I had help and his dad was amazing it still was hard . To staying in a shelter for a month with my boy because my mom put me out at 22 for not abiding by her rules that I felt wasn't necessary . I could have stayed with family friends my baby father family etc but I didn't break i chose to stay in a shelter and work for what I wanted which was my own without help and I did it ! A long month later I had my own place. a place for me and my son to call home shortly after moving in his father my complete everything died in a drowning in the falls he slipped into the whirlpool park well as we know now wasn't an accident but his death goes unjustified because he was too far gone when he washed up and there was no proof of foul play at least not enough to make an arrest . It took nearly 2 yrs to smile again I changed from the inside out me and my son leaned on each other a lot to get through . And once I got through I rekindled with a child hood boyfriend someone I trusted with everything in me we dated I got pregnant with my princess that will be here in 9 days . I let my son get attached to this man he lived with me I knew this was it I was so sure than all of sudden out the blue i learned that he wasn't who I thought he was . Where is he now I have no idea !! He hasn't done anything for this baby but say he wants to be around I brought everything my baby girl has BYMASELF except the car seat and stroller which my mom brought everything else from clothes to diapers to furniture I did that alone . And I'm so proud of myself because I thought it would be hard starting over with one kid already and keeping up with bills but I did it ! It's people with partners who are struggling to provide there's and I'm doing it all alone not saying I'm better but that shows you how determined I am to make it I could have handouts but i enjoy busting my ass for everything I have so no one can say what they did for in the end or think I owe them something . Everyone askes me how am I so strong with everything I've been through in the past 3 yrs including now that I'm most likely going to be a single parent if he doesn't come back around .. and it's simple I cry sometimes I do but i know my son and my daughter who will be here in 9 days to be exact 👏🏾😍😍need me and for that I will always push through every struggle and most important GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME ALL THIS PAIN IS NOT FOR NOTHING HES PREPARING ME FOR WHATS FOR ME AND WANT ME TO BE READY FOR WHATEVER THAT IS . So for that il keep smiling and will forever be the best I can be because I have a story and this is just the beginning !!!