Hey everyone, I'm a mom of 3, well really 4 but I'll get to that in a second. I have my wonderful…

Hey everyone, I'm a mom of 3, well really 4 but I'll get to that in a second. I have my wonderful full of life son, a beautiful smart pre-teen step- daughter, a goofy, funny, step-son. My son and step-son are a month and 20 days apart in age (fun fun). I always had a daughter. However at the age of 2, she passed away, only 5 days after my husband and I got married. We don't know what caused her death and they have done every test imaginable to try and figure it out but they just can't. It was a very very difficult time for my family! I guess I should add that although we had just gotten married, my husband was in the process of adopting my ,our , daughter. This happened in February of 2014. About a year and a half ago my husband and I started talking about having another baby, but it was complicated due to him having had a vasectomy 6 years ago. We won't through all of our options, and deeply researched each one. Long story short, he had a reversal in June of 2016, and we found out right before Thanksgiving that we were pregnant. I am now 11 weeks and am having a very difficult time with this pregnancy,.. it is by far the hardest one I have had physically, but best one emotionally. This is the first time I have been pregnant while married and really in a committed relationship. (Please no judgment, I didn't make the best choices when I was younger, and my babies saved my life!, they are the reason I turned it around) we are so excited about this baby, and expanding our family, but we are also very nervous. Due to what we have already been through, we are so scared of everything and I have never been so hyper aware of my body that every cramp scares the crap out of me. Just looking for an outlet for advice, and hopefully since I have had 2 healthy pregnancies/deliveries I can be of help to someone!