I am celebrating my first mummiversary today and OMG what a year!! It has been the hardest…

I am celebrating my first mummiversary today and OMG what a year!! It has been the hardest year/wonderful year of my entire life. Your social life stops and that is hard to adjust to, and you are sleep deprived but you keep going because this little person is amaaaazing!! I made them amaaaaazing, hats off to me and Congratulations to me, lets see what the second year brings!!

I’ve already wished you Happy Birthday about 10 times since you woke up, and you still don’t know what on earth I’m talking about. On this, your first birthday, I can’t help but remember where I was a year ago today. You were born 12/31/15 @ 8:26 that night at 41 weeks. I had spent 36 hours in labor, oh yes, you took your time to arrive, but my goodness you were worth the wait.

You had a gruff, throaty cry, but my heartbeat quieted you, and your breathing gradually slowed to match it. You knew instinctively that I was your heart, your centre, your home. I had known for months that I was a life source, but from the second you arrived that abstract concept became solid, breathing reality. I had never felt more alive or vital or so in love. This first year of being your mum has been a wild, exhausting and exuberant ride. I have learnt more about myself than I ever thought possible.You have changed our family forever with your mere existence. Your life has accentuated and added layers to the person I was before, and to your Dad too. It’s as if I viewed the world in black and white, and I now see the world as if through your eyes, in vivid color. My son, I can learn so much from your patience, courage and consistency. I have loved the last year, getting to know you and falling in love with you; I don’t want you to change and I don’t want the world to spoil you. Happy birthday my boy.