Why did I stop letting the father of my two oldest from seeing them... well 1st off he wouldn't…

Why did I stop letting the father of my two oldest from seeing them... well 1st off he wouldn't change his ways & thought it would be ok to drink & get drunk around my kids or go out to drink & get high or do whatever he does & leave my kids when they were being sent there to spend time with him 2nd he lives in a unsanitary place 3rd i will get them back all dirty, not bathed & they would always come back sick.. all the above & I was still trying to be a good mom to my boys to have their dad in their life but enough was enough all that & still wouldn't get financially helped with the boys.. happy i put an end to it.. some moms get judged for it but some of you don't know what really goes on & yes there's some moms that are petty & don't let the father of their child see their kid/s for no reason..