I've been suffering from PPD and anxiety and I finally just blew up at my mom and grandma when they were bitching at me…

I've been suffering from PPD and anxiety and I finally just blew up at my mom and grandma when they were bitching at me for stupid crap. And even though I finally let how I felt out. I feel worse 😭I'm currently at my doctor for a follow up and I'm debating if I should tell her about it cause I don't want to be put on medication for it. And with Christmas here it is just making things so much worse