I have a one year old and a 5 month old.. ive been suffering from ppd. i just held my cousins…

I have a one year old and a 5 month old.. ive been suffering from ppd. i just held my cousins newborn baby and i got sad and wanted to cry. i have no idea why. i cant talk to anyone about it because its too embarrassing. idk whats wrong with me... 😢💔