So my clumsy self fell yesterday and if that wasn't bad enough I get super ninja kicks from the baby ...I guess he or she is like mommy what the hell is going on out there ??? So today my 12 yr old says mom I don't want you cleaning or out of bed today just relax and let me take care of everything ! With a big smile on face I begin to feel like everything will be okay until..... my son hands me a pillow ...he says "here you need to levitate your foot" ...I looked at him and started laughing I love my son but he gets a lot of his words mixed up....I said baby you mean elevate. I'd laughed so much until I hurt my foot again because it was one of those roll over laughs...awwwww man I love my son so much I can't wait to meet this bun in the oven !!!!

My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤️
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Things I never thought I'd say...
Until I became a mom:
Racial nickname
I sometimes call my lo monkey. To me he looks like a little monkey. My so says it's racist and offensive. What do you think?

This is my son Walter. Today is his birthday. He would have been five. This picture was taken when he was 16 days old. He was my first child and my only son (I now have 3 girls). He passed away the next day after this picture from congenital heart failure. It was a miracle that he lived passed 12 weeks gestation because of how severe his heart defects were. I miss him so much, I can't believe it's been 5 years. It still hurts so bad. I don't talk about him a lot out loud because I end up bawling...