Today just isn't my day. I'm feeling so down and out and lonely. So I'm pregnant and the father…

Today just isn't my day. I'm feeling so down and out and lonely. So I'm pregnant and the father wants no part of it (which is fine idc), what hurts me is I let my ex back into my life because we still loved each other and wanted to be together. He said he didn't care I was pregnant, he wasn't gonna let me do this alone. He wanted to be there for me & the baby. He already had a perfect bond with my two oldest. So I let my guard down n let him back in, well I saw he wanted out on a date yesterday with some girl, and they looked so happy and cozy. When I tell you my heart broke it broke. I let my guard down & allowed the past to come back only too get hurt again. Everything he said felt like a lie too me. Him telling me he still loved me, wanted to be there for me. EVERYTHING was a lie and it hurts. Now to break the news to my kids why such and such isn't around again gonna hurt me. It's so bad I blocked everyone on my phone & deleted my social media apps. I just wanna shut the world out & worry about me & my kids. Thank god my two oldest are with their dad today. I don't want them seeing me crying. Haven't stopped since 730am. I feel so stupid for believing him and giving love a try again.