OMG !! I MISS MY FKNG DAUGHTER. i feel so terrible smoking weed and cigarettes and taking shots and enjoying myself because i feel like im poisoning my daughter then i remember shes not there to be poisoned and then my heart breaks all over again. and my highs blown and i wasted money trying to forget the hurt and it was all for nothing. i cant understand why god would do this to me. . i try to be such a good person amd i just get shit on in every possible way. i try and tell myself God know best and everything happenes for a reason but it hurts so bad. i feel so empty inside. i cry til my chest aches and nothing i do can ever bring my baby girl back.
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@amberjacq, Well everyone's experience is different. I don't think alcohol is the best but weed helps me in ways that nothing else ever will! I just don't think it's that big of a deal. I smoked hella weed after I lost my first baby, and I would still smoke now. I have quit for my own reasons of wanting a job but I don't think weed clouds anything. Without weed.... I would be a very angry unhappy lady with a very dirty house. I don't condone any other drugs but weed is the least of anyone's problems.
@deennbean, and I hope you will get through this in your own time like I did and I hope the best for you just try to stay strong hun and I'll keep you in my prayers hun 💞
@babymay2016, I didn't mean it in a harsh way and I'm sorry you took what I said as harsh but I still stand by what I said cause I was trying to help her cause I've lost two children and I've went through depression and it's a hard thing to get through especially when you have drugs and alcohol clogging your mind and I didn't personally do drugs or alcohol but my older brother did and he was depressed for years because he had all that stuff blocking his way of thinking and he finally went off them two years ago and he's doing great now he has two jobs and has his own place and he's doing better and so am I cause we both got through those bad thoughts the devil put in our heads, but I am sorry yall took what I said the wrong way
@amberjacq, i never said it was gods fault i was doing "bad things" i know exactly why im doing what im doing.. because im fkng depressed and im trying to numb myself by smoking marijuana and drinking and constantly staying busy.. trying to avoid any free moment to sit and think about what my life is right now and how empty i feel inside. and maybe thats not how you went about your coping, but right now i choose to ignore how terrible i think my life is going and how broken my heart is and deal with it after the wound so fresh. and maybe in a little while, ill deal with the pain and face all of my problems and cope a little better but for now im just gonna sit here and do this
@amberjacq, I get what you were trying to say, I guess... but I don't think it is really that bad to let loose or whatever you want to call it after something traumatic happens. I have honestly done the same thing. She didn't even say she was blaming God but I'm not gonna lie about how mad I was with God when my first baby was taken from me. I understand things in a different light after all that time and I an close with God and have been blessed with a healthy baby boy. But this was just harsh as fuck and I can't not say something. I totally understand the pain and would not blame someone for grieving in that way if they wish. Jesus
Its not God's fault that you're doing bad things and making bad choices for yourself God gave us all free will to make our own choices don't blame God for the bad things in your life blame the devil cause he's put so many bad thoughts into your head and so many bad things into your life and the devil is making you think it's God's fault when it's not, sometimes bad things happen and there isn't anything anyone can do about it because this world is cursed and everyone struggles through life but it's our jobs to not let the devil get in our heads and make it worse for us and this is something I struggle with daily I pray daily because I have also lost two children of my own and the devil had tried to put awful thoughts in my head to but I fight him everytime and pray to God to help me find the strength to fight these awful thoughts and it's helped me a lot so just try to pray the bad away and pray for God to help you find the strength to let go and to help you get through this tough time in your life and whenever you're feeling sad again just pray I do this all the time especially cause of my two children and I know my two children would want me to be happy and live my life until it's my time and I'm sure your baby wants the same thing for you so just find strength in your baby and pray I know you can do it cause I do it every single day you have to stay strong for your child cause I know your Angel would want you to live and happy long life without all those awful drugs and alcohol your Angel wouldn't like to see you doing those things she would be very hurt by it so you just gotta find the strength to stay sober and keep the devil out of your mind hun just stay strong for your Angel baby I know you can do it
i just want her back. i need her. it isnt fucking fair .i want my baby 😫😫
God givith and take away, he put your angel 😇 on earth for a reason he also took her away for a reason. She will always be watching over you, she will always be there to listen! She may be gone physically but her spirit is always there. You are a strong momma! Grieve the way you feel is best for you! 😍❤
@babymay2016, not for my older brother weed messed him up and weed does fog your mind it did my older brothers