So we've stalled out. They won't do anything to help labor progress and won't let me to anything to…

So we've stalled out. They won't do anything to help labor progress and won't let me to anything to keep my body contracting naturally because I'm preterm. That's all fine and dandy, baby boy isn't ready and I'm not going to force him. But after 30 hours of labor and dealing with all of this mess of being transferred via ambulance to a bigger hospital and being told I can't eat and poked about a million times with needles, I'm almost done. A part of me just wants him out right now so that I don't ever have to deal with the mess of labor and delivery ever again. I hate to feel like I wasted all this time and energy for nothing. I am so scared of dilating and getting into active labor. I'm scared of the pain and I'm scared because I don't know what to expect. But at this point, it almost sounds relieving to just deal with it all and go home with a baby instead of being in prodromal labor.