Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

So I'm 9 weeks pregnant and my mom just found out. Know she wants me give the baby up for adoption. I honestly dont know what to do at this point

I can't take it anymore! Haley (yes my 1mth old and no I wasn't able to go through this "joy" of nursing my older daughter, Molly) has been screaming non stop for 6hrs! All she wants to do is eat and I can't have her attached to me all day, everyday! She has wanted to eat every hr on the hr for the past 3hrs! I put her in her room so I don't scream at her but I just can't take it!

My mom's trying to convince me to let her into the delivery room with us, but I honestly just want it to be my boyfriend and I. And it doesn't even have anything to do with how shitty my mom has been this entire pregnancy, I just feel that this is our child, I want it to be just something that we experience. Plus, I feel it'll be a lot less stressful if only my boyfriend is there. But my god, she's trying to make me feel guilty and I'm about to snap 🙄

I'm being induced. Baby has no heartbeat. I am numb and just want to die.