I hate being depressed, but I just want to give up on trying to have a baby sometimes. I want a…

I hate being depressed, but I just want to give up on trying to have a baby sometimes. I want a child so bad and it just isn't happening, and we're broke because I can't find a job and I have no insurance to go to a doctor. I just feel so down and out. I don't know what to do. I had a really good feeling that this month was going to be our month but it doesn't seem like it'll happen. Sorry to drag on I just don't know where to turn, I don't know what to do with myself.