I haven't been on in awhile since a lot has happened lately. I got a job but my fiancé lost his at the same time. He got another job but now our car is broke down and it's 1500 to get it fixed so he's putting it on his credit card and I have to pay it and the rent and any other bills until he gets paid. I'm so beyond stressed out part of me just wants to break down and cry because I'm back to where I started in the first place all my money going to his mom basically and never having any left over for things me and my kids need. I mean their really never in need but I have yet to actually buy my son anything at all. I couldn't buy my daughter birthday presents. It basically was everyone else buying them stuff and it sucks because I feel like a bad mother and a parent who can not provide for their children. I know i won't be able to buy Christmas presents this year and my daughter didn't have a Halloween costume this year. Honestly I feel like a shitty ass parent and it kills me