I am a #proudmommy. ❤ From the moment my daughter was born, I have suffered from postpartum…

I am a #proudmommy. ❤ From the moment my daughter was born, I have suffered from postpartum depression and anxiety. It became so bad that I didn't enjoy her, didn't want to be around her. Still, I remained silent out of embarrassment and fear of judgment. Eventually, it got so bad that last month, I tried to take my life. I pulled through, though, and though I don't remember it, when I was in the hospital blacked out, all I wanted was her. I cried for her. Begged them to let me see her. Looked for her. Asked about her. I spent two weeks in a behavioral hospital getting better.

Since getting out, I have had to adjust to normal life again. It's been hard. Stressful. But I've pulled through. I enjoy life more. I enjoy my daughter more. I still struggle everyday: it's a battle, and it is long and it is difficult. But I will never stop fighting. I love her more than anything, and I think I need her more than she needs me. She's learned so much in just four short months and I am so proud of her. She looks just like me, and she acts just like her daddy, which I absolutely love. I know when she gets older, we'll be the best of friends.

My mom wasn't around as a child. She abandoned us. And I realized that..I can't do that to her. She needs a mother. I want the chance to be there for her like I wanted, needed my mom to be. My mom inspires me to be the complete opposite of her. I will never abandon or give up on my daughter. She is my everything and I'm so happy to be her mommy. 💕