Now when I try to express how I feel about the arguing and fighting constantly I need to go to hell.…

Now when I try to express how I feel about the arguing and fighting constantly I need to go to hell. Forget this, man I've been holding back tears for too long. I'm tired of holding them back. I'm tired of trying to be strong when someone knocks me down. I always suck shit up and continue to do for others and my self. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭