I'm nt depressed I'm just stressed... but I dnt have the capability of losing it rii nw cz all may…

I'm nt depressed I'm just stressed... but I dnt have the capability of losing it rii nw cz all may go ta hell... I rather just disappear I dnt wanna run ta anyone to console me I just wanna be alone just me and a whoollleeee bunch of blunts an endless bottle and a river of tears.... I can't be at peace so I suck it up fake a smile and keep going cz mii kids are watching and I can't/dont smoke😢😢😢😑😑😥😥😒😒😒 just being honest