So… I am kind of feeling conflicted right now… It was my friends birthday in San Diego… And so we…

So… I am kind of feeling conflicted right now… It was my friends birthday in San Diego… And so we went out for dinner… And then they went out to a club afterwards… But I'm not showing… And I kind of wanted to hang out with my friends one last time before I move completely to Rancho Cucamonga… And I drink pineapple juice, lemonade, water and sprite. My boyfriend was super upset. He said I wasn't putting the baby and my body first. But… I feel really good… I got a lot accomplished today with my job… I got to get a pedicure with my grandmother and my mom… I think he's really upset because I'm not gonna have the truck back in time for him to write his new motorcycle. But maybe he is upset that I went out after dinner. It just sucks that I have to feel guilty for spending some time with my friends laughing, dancing… And snap chatting the night away. Am I that bad for wanting to do something before I get gigantic and have an infant and a person attached to me for the rest of my life? I am NOT a club person at all!!… But I haven't seen my friends in a really long time… And this was gonna be my last time. Am I a horrible mommy already?!