I secretly look at wedding gowns and rings online.. on December 5th it'll be a year we've been dating and a month later…

I secretly look at wedding gowns and rings online.. on December 5th it'll be a year we've been dating and a month later I'm due. I've always tried to push away getting married because of the things I've been through before Tristian.

Now, I'm not rushing anything and I haven't mentioned it to him at all. If he were to ask me to marry him right now I'd say no because I don't want to get married just because we're having a baby.

If he were to ask me to marry him and be his forever, after Tylan is born, I'd say yes.

I'm never one to jump like that. I can honestly say I love him and I've never felt a connection with someone like I do with him.