Not even excited on my birthday. Spent all morning trying to clean what I could (cleaning up…

Not even excited on my birthday. Spent all morning trying to clean what I could (cleaning up everyone else's mess) and can upstairs to get dressed, and my stepmom walks in the door bitching and complaining like every other day. It gives me this feeling to where I cannot breather and makes me feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm so uncomfortable here and feel trapped upstairs in my room with jaxtyn in order to avoid all the negative energy. How fucking sad is that. I wish I had the money to move out.