I'm so ready to hold my little man yet at the same time I'm like noooooo I'm not ready at all like…

I'm so ready to hold my little man yet at the same time I'm like noooooo I'm not ready at all like he has everything he needs he's so spoiled already especially by his great grandmama but like emotionally and mentally I'm like no not yet lol and although I've had 2 c sections I'm terrified not because they hurt or because they're bad but because it's surgery and I've got white coat syndrome so bad lol I'm terrified and I'm excited yes but scared too I'm scared of babies they freak me out they're cute and all but they're so tiny and I'm so big like bruh I'm scared I'm gonna hurt it lol 😂