Four days late, no sign of AF, so tested this morning, despite 99%of my brain telling me I'm not…

Four days late, no sign of AF, so tested this morning, despite 99%of my brain telling me I'm not pregnant. Test is negative and after I wiped saw light pink on the toilet paper. Why must you sike me out AF!?!?

Just want to give up, been trying for 18 months now. Maybe I waited too long, maybe it's not meant to be 💔