It's the anniversary month and unless you have suffered the near loss of a child. So yes,yes I can hate someone one month out of the year. I know,because I experience it.

I asked because you may still suffer but you can't hate someone for one month out of the year. You need to pray and how God how to deal with it. If you have forgiven him still sit with him and if you don't tell him why, and start the healing process from there.

Have you really forgiven him?

Yeah, maybe I should be honest. He doesn't know I still suffer psychologically

That's a tough one. I've never been in that situation but maybe just sit apart and tell him you need some space if he asks?