I got pregnant because my husband wanted a baby. And there was a point where I was considering…

With huge life decisions like that you need to be the one in command. Since it's your body and life. If you're really struggling emotionally/mentally right now, sorry if I'm making an assumption off your posts which you don't feel are true, therapy or speaking to a doctor could be greatly helpful

I just wanted to make everyone happy so I had a baby.

And I am in the process of getting post pardem depression medication

Your reaction to your child seems very cold and I genuinely hope the medicine helps you. I'm not trying to judge you. I wish you and your baby all the best.

If you don't feel like you can do it there's options to help you or you could give someone else the opportunity to make their dreams come true with a baby they can't have and will love. It does get better. Trust me. I was all out of wack the first month or so. Don't do what you don't want to do to make others happy. In the end you are the one responsible for the baby and have to care for him. But like I said there are people that can help you. Good luck!

Thank you. I wish I didn't feel like this too. It's very exhausting. I'm so depressed and negative all the time. And I don't want to feel such hate toward my son

Message me anytime you want to talk. I too have bad depression and anxiety. I went through it at first (granted not as severe) but trust me, you're not the first person to feel this way. As tough as it may be your baby needs you and you have a duty to care for him as a mother.

Thank you. I hate feeling like this.