apart of me wants to call my daughters dad and be like look I'm sorry I love let's work this out but…

apart of me wants to call my daughters dad and be like look I'm sorry I love let's work this out but the other part is like why? conflicts of my brain and heart btw it's my brain telling me to to tell him that while my heart says you deserves better. don't get me wrong I love him with everything but Idk