I've had postpartum depression since the day after I had my son. I had just had a C Section, everybody was coming to see me, my son was 3 pounds and in the NICU and my husband was away working most of the day. The pain was too much even with meds, couldn't sleep and there was already drama. By the time we got home, I was up all night with baby, husband needed sleep and was overtired too. Dad was telling me how to parent and that I should start acting normal 5 days after surgery.. It's gotten a little better over the months but with my history I still struggle. I looked for a shoulder in the wrong places while husband was working and he didn't get what I was going through. wanted to feel beautiful and wanted again. was tired of not having anyone to talk to. still feel that way some days.