God I just want a pistol or shotgun(12g) some coys(plastic deer and targets) and night vision…

God I just want a pistol or shotgun(12g) some coys(plastic deer and targets) and night vision goggles to go get out some pent up anxiety...or a nice bow and some really strong suped up arrows would do too but god I need that and I need deer meat cause I am craving that ish but I can't kill anything I don't have it in me.