Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I know this sounds sooo fkedup but sometimes i wanna get into a bad accident so my husband sees exactly all the things i do ... and how wrong he is by saying i don’t do enough ( not in those words but the jist of it ) anyway .... i think this all the time . Maybe then he will think differently .

Well I. glad the lack of interest in me is because hes watching porn for the third time when he promised me three times he wouldnt. We have had 3 issues where it lead to him cheatinf before! Im glad I can be ugly. I didnt ask to be made fat and given stretch marks but damnit its our child and things happen.. Im still pretty right? am I?.. I didnt purposely try to look the way I do.. Im pregnant.. its how it works.. I thought I was still good enough. Do I still look okay?.. I keep shaking now..

So I need some advice my boyfriend has got to the point where he smokes weed about every hour now and it really aggravates me he's not respectful enough to take it somewhere else or to not do it as much and it's really getting to me so I'm not sure what to do