I have really bad trust issues. Tbh, I always look through my husbands phone & check his accounts…

I have really bad trust issues. Tbh, I always look through my husbands phone & check his accounts and stuff but that's just its just my insecurities and they're much worse now that I'm pregnant and hormonal and gaining weight, it doesn't help, id rather know up front then later on. BUT I decided a couple days ago, that if my husband goes out with another girl or is talking to another girl or lies to me about where he's at when he's with his friends or whatever; then that's a decision he decided to make. & he's gonna live with that choice everyday for the rest of his life. he will know HE ruined our family. he knows he is married & has a son on the way. the girl may or may not know; but either way my husband chooses to make that decision & if he decides to, that's on him. but I know it will eat him alive every day.