So I had the exact same dream I had in my second trimester. I was so drugged up I couldn't remember…

So I had the exact same dream I had in my second trimester. I was so drugged up I couldn't remember anything from the hospital during labor and delivery. My memory was shot for 2whole days and I didn't remember having my daughter and holding her for the firs time and what she looked like. Couldn't remember pushing her out or being in pain or anything. All I know is I visit my moms house 2days later and see this big ol baby that's like 12-15lbs and I'm just crying not even knowing if this baby came from me. I was asking why nobody videotaped it or anything all they did was show me a hospital pic of what she looked like. I couldn't even bond with her i didn't know how nor want to. I didn't know if she was being breastfed. Second time I've had this dream and it's really a nightmare. Why do I keep having the same dream??? Now I'm so scared😱😧😭😭😢