Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Natural folks are you guys nervous about going natural? Have you gone natural before? I went natural with my son (not by choice) and I felt amazing after but the pain during was no joke and I'm amazing with pain😰😕 I want to go natural with my daughter but having second thoughts.

My last one before I go and pay 300 something for them miracle pills!!! 😩😩😩😩 But my life can't go on without them. 😒

Birth Plan Rant

I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?