Was diagnosed with postpartum depression today. Had my daughter 13 days ago.
I heard stories of woman with postpartum being frustrated with their babies all the time. Or angry. But I don't feel an ounce of anger towards her. I just don't feel connected. I want to cry all the time. And it's terrible for me to feel like I don't want to be around my daughter. Looking at her makes me want to bust down and cry. Her and my husband feel so far away from me mentally. And it's so hard. I'm supposed to be happy aren't I ? I finally met my little girl face to face. Held her on my arms. And she is a spitting image of a mix of me and my husband. So why? Why do I not want to be around her. Why do i feel she's so far away. Why do I feel I haven't bonded.

It hurts.

To anyone feeling just pure sadness after labor don't be afraid to reach out as quickly as possible..... It's not a joke, postpartum depression is very real. And it makes you feel less of a mother. For me it felt good to tell someone other than my husband how I feel. And I will be getting proper treatment. I just want to know why I feel the way I do :(