Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

so I'm so late I'm at the end of my 8th month and next week I start my 9th I'm so confused with this month stuff. but I'm 32 weeks I got a couple more weeks. 😦

Anyone have any luck with getting a membrane sweep done? I am going to ask for one next week at my 38 week appointment (that's the first week they'll start to do it) also, hoping it may slowly work before getting induced the following week due to gestational diabetes. Thanks!

So turns out I'm 1cm dialated...had a nice long convo with my doctor and she agreed to do a membrane sweep in next weeks visit.

I'm 22 weeks today and it felt like my baby rotated positions today - granted they move all over the place at this stage, but I wonder if he will be head down next Tuesday at 23 week ultrasound appointment...