I couldn't bring myself to call my counselors office (they never answer anyway and phone calls make…

I couldn't bring myself to call my counselors office (they never answer anyway and phone calls make me anxious) so I went to the website and made a referral for myself. I feel so silly. But I just want to get my depression under control. It's affecting my bond with my daughter bc I am not able to enjoy motherhood like I want. Hopefully this will push things along and I can get to feeling like myself again soon. I put it off for way too long. 💖