Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Scared I'm going to lose my job because next week i have to start NST twice a week. 45 mins away. I was wanting to work much longer than 32 weeks. Oh well, maybe my workplace will be understanding.. 😅

Opinions ladies ?

This is my mom bikini lol I'm not sure how I feel about it I'm 2 weeks PP my stomach is still shrinking and I have stretch marks I'm not comfortable with yet. Just getting used to the fact that my body will never be the same again.. So here I am visiting the idea of one pieces which I never would wear but now I am going to. Obviously not going to the beach anytime soon most likely not for another 6 weeks but just trying on the bathing suit. I start a new health journey eating...

Bump pic. 14 weeks 2 days ! I'm showing alot earlier with my boy than I did with my girl !excuse the background, I'm at work, im a painter, and one of my workers said boss you're getting pudgy !! 😋😋 so I had to go take a look in the mirror!

who is pregnant and works? 😊😊😊 I'm debating to go to work till I'm due to get extra money..I'm 20 weeks.