I've always weighed about 20 lbs more than joseph.. well through my pregnancy we both gained. then I…

I've always weighed about 20 lbs more than joseph.. well through my pregnancy we both gained. then I was about 55 pounds more than him. now I lost most of my weight and am only 13 pounds more than him.. and it feels good. I really want to lose more and weigh less than him for the first time! idk why it bothers me so much.. I just want to feel pretty and skinny I guess lol