I feel like absolute crap. I'm only 12 weeks. second time around is sooooo much worse than the…

I feel like absolute crap. I'm only 12 weeks. second time around is sooooo much worse than the first. I believe my m/s has gotten worse and I can't do anything. horrible back pain and cramping. I feel terrible. a part of me feels like I'm getting the worst because we planned this baby...but Im done after this. no meds work and I can't go to work. last time I waited tables til I went into labor. this time I can't even function to get to work to sit down at a table!! say a prayer for me....feeling depressed